mydeliverance

i don’t understand.
i get this rage up madness, of anger.
its not fair.

if only they organize their time right.
if only we have a set plan that is done rite, for the better right of everyone else.
no. no it cant be done, no because we are lazy, no because its not us, no because life doesn’t allow us.
what is this bullshit, these silly excuses we come up with. its pathetic cuz we could have been a lot better.
we can be a lot better, do a lot MORE.

instead when someone points it out we just get upset and turn our faces the other way. when you planned to come here you decided to give YOUR time to us, so you need to show that. i know that i probably didnt work as hard as i usually do or as i should have but i sure as hell tryed to be their whenever you planned your meetings. its only fair to have it both ways. it needs to be both sided. is it me!?? do you have the same feeling poring in the way i have for you? i dont understand, and i believe i never well.
we just need to be more understanding. willing to change, not change people, but to change ourselves. who we are. into the someone who we will be in the future. when we change our selves we change the people around us. BUT it has to start  with our selves and not with others. if we start with otherwise, it will always stay the same.
i am sorry i realise im too  harsh you have helped a lot, just coming down here was enough. i just want it to be perfect, but i guess nothing is ever perfect. whats perfect for me is not perfect for you and is sure not perfect for God.

i hate this phrase but i need to look at the glass half full, thats all. as if its easy when im pissed to do that. before i take action or to even let words come out my mouth i need to think of all the good that came or that will come out of it.

the cup half full.
the cup half full.
the cup half full.
Its always half full…