mydeliverance

imm on my way now to a different country.
hmm wow i can tell you lots changed since the last time i rote.
It’s been a great ride. Ups downs.  but with everything that has been happening i keep going higher. in everything in life from all the experiences we learn a lot. and it’s a bliss to be able to be aware of this.
things seem to get out of hand but only cuz im reaching the climax in both physically and work wise. i wish i didn’t have to sleep in order not waist time but be fully aware.

anywho, this is the first time i really feel that im in control of my life. it’s been a while. in fact it’s never been.
im taking  control now, probably see the change in me (mom in particual) she will never except this change. but im enjoying it so much more, my life has meaning, my life has power. it’s not just passing by. no there is meaning.
everyone deserves to have this. is it freedom of choice?

wow its nice to be able to step back and look at it from afar. its been a while since i was able to have a few minutes to myself. this feels good. need to create this ritual an hour everyday…. but still it’s not the same.. actually im thinking of going for my daily run again.  yup that would do it!

aaaahh  this feels good. im doing good, im not a bad person as my mom fills my head. everything i do gets me closer to my inner self. i don’t no why it’s really difficult for them to just …. let gooooo… there comes a time when they just need to let go

i miss righting. i just wanna keep righting. maybe cuz i’m typing on my ipad for the first time, which is pretty easy surprisingly. or i just really miss writing!

im on the plane now excited to see a good friend of mine.